I’ve always had this thing about birthdays. I don’t like being the centre of attention. What am I supposed to do when I’m in the front with everyone singing a birthday song for me?
My family members aren’t very generous with their attention spans. Conversations are kept as short as possible. However, that didn’t make me a shy person. I may have been shy growing up, but I’ve learnt to be more vocal. I am comfortable speaking in front of large crowds. I remembered once I was appointed to represent my secondary school in a large auditorium with many other secondary schools present. It was some form of a dialogue where each school had to send out a representative to give out a short presentation. I have no idea why I was chosen, but nonetheless it all went well, at least in my own opinion. I didn’t stutter and that was my first attempt at public speaking.
In church, we often have large zone meetings. I was comfortable standing in the front and playing the guitar for various sessions. During mission trips, I had no trouble conducting briefings and debriefings to large groups of people, many of which older than me.
In University, presentations were a weekly affair. I may get a little nervous if I have little or no understanding on what I am presenting about, but otherwise I will not hesitate to present in front of the whole lecture hall. Sometimes I get so comfortable I just move around freely and engage the class in my own ways.
However, for birthdays, it’s just different. The attention that I receive, with all the pairs of eyes looking at me, makes me uneasy.
I think I might be introverted, because I process a lot more thoughts than the words that come out of my mouth, yet I also think that I might be a bit of an extrovert because I have been known to be really talkative to the extent it gets annoying.
Or maybe I am a well-balance of both? I am, afterall, libra. My sign is a pair of scales.